i'm not afraid of you, but i don't trust you, there is a difference, trust is earned. if you think that i'm afraid because i'm not showing up, that is neither the case, the guy who hosts this stuff has the choice to give me directions but he refuses to do so. i had a conversation with crown empress and he wondered why i didn't feel welcome here, i let him know but he didn't seem to understand. he was the only one from here who actually bothered talking to me. this group has given me no incentive to consider it, we had a bad start and nothing else. the core issue is that i have been given the impression that you guys are exclusively casual players, and while i can respect that, it really isn't what i'm looking for. you should know that casual players and competitive players do not mix. btw, the "bodyguard" thing was a bit of a joke, i just wanted to bring someone good to play with so i wouldn't be bored out of my mind.