I want to ruminate a bit, since I have absolutely no one to talk to about this to get some perspective.
February to Now, I think I'm better, but I'm still nowhere's as near as good as I need to be. I feel kinda stuck, but it's a better kind of stuck, or maybe I'm comfortable with being stuck for a bit. I certainly don't like the fact I'm a public joke - it really drives me nuts, but it is what it is, sometimes. Every community needs a joke member, so they just kinda form them and it sticks nicely. Okay, that's just the hand I've been dealt.
As for this character, it's incredibly frustrating when you learn things and can't apply them because you're being forced to block so much. Any sort of lapse or distraction and you'll eat about 4-5k, and either lose the staff, be getting ready to deal with a 50/50 or an unblockable, or fail to see the player's grab setup - worst of all be in corner.
Why do I have to work so hard for corner? I can confirm a lot of hits but if I'm spaced wrong there's not much I can do without taking a great amount of risk. If I don't get wallbounce I have to open them up again. Unless I use escape after a staffless confirm I risk getting DPed unless I block and let them have a turn, which means I will be cornered again...
Bah - I guess "You just have to be good"...
I don't know what I'm missing, but if it only comes from play or practice it's just not coming. I can talk about different situations or stuff all day but ultimately there's just something wrong with *me*, and I'm just running round in circles trying to figure it all out and do better and it feels like I'm the only one that doesn't get it. I'm really tired of seeing new litchis pass me by and move on to get respect and more wins and I'm still figuring things out.