@Thunder : Try not to blast me with sarcasm or depressive comments like "I just suck" when I say you performed alot better than you did before. Try to keep up that pressure - it sorta looks like your breaking out of that turtle shell. Just keep plugging away one of these days you might be godlike if you manage to mirror your defensive skill with an offensive skill. And BE MORE POSITIVE maybe even get a mic so you can talk in parties... it helps break the ice of player matches and its easier to point out the lil criticisms.
And another note -- if you feel like things are just terrible, dont judge yourself in comparison to me. Im not trying to toot my own horn or nothing but we are clearly on different levels, I have no problem if you wana throw down some games with me but I understand it can be hard when you get pummeled, you should also try to find some people on your level body them.