Like I haven't been trying?
And playing this game just makes me disgusted at this point.
I absolutely hate that everything I've worked on for all this time - wasting months of my life trying to build up a real damn game around this character and this game and it doesn't amount to much other than "he's ass". I tried really hard to analyze matches I've had that I didn't and did have recordings of, went to and got laughed at at events, sucked it up, and the end result is "I knew what to do and I fucked it up anyways" or "and then I did something stupid and got hit anyways."
It's not fucking working. I don't know what to tell you other than that. I read up, I watched up, I practiced every day at 8AM at school instead of working for a solid year, and I am still leagues worse than someone who's only been playing 3 weeks. It's a fucking embarrassment!
All that work, all that time, and everything it cost me - means nothing but a cheap laugh to most players around here when my name gets mentioned.
I'm a fucking moron, though. I'll just keep practicing whatever shit as always hoping I can master it. Same as fucking blazblue. Never getting better at any real person's pace, still a competitive joke years later.
God fucking damn....